I wish I could take Erin’s pain away tonight….
She has fallen and I am not there to help. The irony is she has fallen, in part, because I am not there. There was a long stretch where her pain was quite and we were smiling, laughing, loving, holding hands. We smile at each other, travelling can change that quickly and it has. I have not visited my blog in some time. Strangely that is a good thing as I more often now I turn to this when I feel alone. I will be home tomorrow Erin. I wish I was there now to hold you and help you past this moment towards the next time we can smile together.
I know you are suffering tonight. I am 2000 miles away powerless to help. I sit alone reading your texts filled with anger, pain, anguish and sadness. I absorb them as if doing so will drain some of your pain even if for a short time.
I wish I could drain all the pain away but reality is all too evident. But sometimes wishing and hoping is all you have. Tonight it is all I have.
Goodnight Erin. Sleep soon.