I love talking with my wife. We had spent too many years just covering the basics. I rarely, if ever, shared my fears, my insecurities, my doubts or my dreams. I had lost the connection and the spark in life.
Talking to her now is amazing. We share everything. It can be hard as she often shares the immediate thoughts. They can be anger, sadness , hatred, agony, desire, hope and often love. I appreciate when she has the strength to tell me of her pain. I have never run from those moments. I have always said, i caused it and i must fave it. It is very difficult to sit and listed to it all but i do it knowing she is living those emotions weekly, daily and even hourly. I owe it to her to experience as much as she will share. Today alone we woke happy in a loving embrace. She hated me between 2 to 4 and tonight can smile at me again. I recognize and embrace how much i have affected our lives and work hard to easy that burden. She see my efforts and appreciates them even when we are not directly speaking.
Communication is so very important. When she is not talking to me i still try and communicate to her. I do this through actions. I look for every chance i can to express my understanding of her needs. She often tells me she notices everything which empowers me to go further.
We vow never to stop talking again.